Yesterday Was a Good Day
There is no rhyme or reason. It
is 4 A.M, and I sit on the floor beside her, rubbing her back. Except to just
be here, I am helpless to make any real difference at the moment. I am the best
friend who holds back her hair, except this is not from some stupid
self-inflicted debauchery. This is her life. She has chosen to make her bed on
the floor. I contemplate doing the same to be closer to her. The regular
companions snuggle in around her. They are familiar with what the sounds mean.
She is finally asleep in her bed. I check on her one last time. I pull the
blankets up to my chin. It is now 7:20. Jayde's bathroom and trash can are once
again clean - hopefully, for the final time. The laundry from the night's
episode lays in the hallway; it can wait until later. Chris is peacefully
asleep. I envy my sweet husband's ability to sleep/snore through anything. The
episodes are becoming more frequent. The respite we enjoyed for a year seems
like a distant memory. She has started losing weight again. I fear what this
all could mean. I begin to doze off, only to hear her up once more. Yesterday
was a good day. Then again, they usually are.
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