Showing posts from May, 2018

Hopes, Wishes and Prayers...Oh My

I sit in my living room with the curtains pulled open, fixated on the burnt orange glow across the horizon as it muddles with the bright blue of the morning sky. Having endured many late nights and all-nighters lately…the last six months, I can count on one hand how many times I have been awake to see the vivid colors of a sunrise or hear the little corner of our world come to life. Most mornings, as Chris kisses me goodbye before he begins his day, I am barely comatose as I utter, "I love you, " audible in a way only he can understand. We are naturally night owls...however, Jayde’s POTS has taken that character trait to an entirely new level.  As my pillow and plush weighted blanket lull me to sleep in the early morning hours, I clung to the last remaining shreds of denial and hope. Hopeful Jayde's test will show she was okay, healthy, not in need of major life-altering surgery. The combination of the morning noises of the coffee maker, Chris in the shower, an